Friday, September 24, 2021

I Do No Consent to the Current Narrative(s)

Since silence is consent I'm stating here on my blog that I do not consent to the current narrative, nor to other historical, medical, sociatal, political, religious, education and maybe others not mentioned here narratives.  




Monday, October 7, 2019

MindTalk...the 'Not-Self' (Facebook Group Post - Intuitive Human Design)

I'll be honest, when I first started looking into human design I was perplexed by the language and especially what the not-self really meant. How do I understand it if I don't get what the term is implying? Anyone else have that? What the not-self boils down to, and the whole crux of hd is, is not making decisions with your mind. That's it.

Later, I noticed that I related to this not-self in both my definition and in my openess. I was making decisions from my mind, in ALL area of my life. So, of course it didn't matter whether I was defined or not, I was still acting out as my not-self. I know I'm not the only one who has related to the not-self aka MindTalk, even in your definition. Am I correct? Have you also noticed the MindTalk thru your definition? That's why I didn't specify each center within the main posts, only in hashtags at the bottom. That's why I said in the first post in that series that this is helpful to ALL, even those who know nothing about human design. I want this information to be accessible without the need to know your own chart. Not everyone is interested in that, tho may be interested in learning how to make decisions correctly, not from their mind.

For this week's post, I want to open up the conversation around how the mind tries to control our decision making, taking us away from our inner authority, and drives us crazy with fear and anxiety. Now I realize there are some projectors who have outer authority and no inner authority in the same sense the rest of us have. I would love to hear how this works for you.

The mind is strong and loud and does not want to give over control in decision making to our inner authority. I've done a lot of mindset work myself, have lived without the mind making my decisions in the past while following by natural inner authority, have become rigid in my mindset allowing it to make my fearful, anxiety filled decisions, so I've been on both side of this fence. I know what it's like and how the mind makes us resist our inner authority. I know the difference in how I psychically feel when I'm resisting life and when I'm in the flow of it. How about you? Can you remember a time when you were naturally following your inner authority and not allowing your mind to fearfully control your daily decisions? Even if only once? Can you tap into how that felt within you? If not, that's ok.

To get this conversation started, what fears and anxiety is your MindTalk using in your daily life to make decisions, right now? Are you becoming aware of it? Awareness is the first step, not the last. I almost forgot, let's embrace self love and compassion for ourselves during this process. 🥰🌟💖


Saturday, September 28, 2019

Libra New Moon in Human Design Gate 18 of Correction

I.T.O.M.
Inwardly
Tending
Our
Mind

In-tending our garden, planting the seeds we want to grow - Inwardly Tending Our Mind, the garden. What are you In-tending during this New Moon in gate 18 of Correction, Libra at 5°? Earth is in gate 17 of Opinions, Aries at 5°. Mercury and Pluto are forming the channel of Transformation during this NM!

We are definitely going thru a Transformation while Saturn asks us if what we desire is worth fighting for - is it worth thriving towards?

Well, IS it? Even when we feel the sqeeze and can hardly breathe due to it? Even when we feel deflated? Can we Surrender and Trust the Transformation process? Can we have Faith that Life really does Know Best for us and our Unfolding? Can we Perserve?

The Truth (Pluto) is, I want to Communicate (Mercury) about my Transformation yet, helloooo, gotta LIVE it first (I'm still in my transformation lol)!! And it has to be adaptable for the Tribe as an Individual. I desire the freedom to creatively focus on bringing forth what I've learned in my experiences 3rd line to all of you in a practical way 5th line. I want my Voice to Impact your Life!!

Here's what I'm intending for this New Moon in Libra. What are y'all intending?

The humble openess to receive...
Ability to continue my human design certification
Community support
Fruitful opportunities
Creative flow & harvest

The humble openess to be more vulnerable and open...
To share my personal life experiences, including those I'm in the thick of, imperfectly perfect just as I am. 🌑🌟🦄💜


Friday, September 27, 2019

Surrendering to Life's Disruption

The awesome part of this disruption I'm going thru is that it's bringing me even more into my body and my experience with my S&A and inner authority by taking the reins out of the hands of my mind. Yes, I know a lot of the human design knowledge but that doesn't help me if I'm not in my body experiencing it, as it's meant to be. The mind can be tricky in that sense. It can make you think you're experiencing your design, but are you really experiencing it by embodying it or are you thinking about the experience instead? It goes along with, "are you walking your talk or just talking", are you living it, really living it, viscerally within the body? The more in touch we get within our body's intelligence the less the mind freaks out with its incessant chatter and anxiety. Letting go, surrendering and patience are key along with self love and compassion.


Taking a Pause

I had this plan yet Life had another.
I wanted to open my Intuitive Human Design biz next week yet Life said surrender that.
I wanted to help others in my group yet Life said help those living with you first.
I wanted to make money to hire the help I thought I needed yet Life said I'm capable of it myself by surrendering the other.
I wanted to be a contender again, lol, yet Life said those days are gone, I'm preparing you for something greater.
I wanted to be comfortable yet Life said it's time to get down and dirty by walking your talk.


Life is Saturn, now direct in gate 38 the fighter - what's worth fighting for, or like I say, thriving towards? It then moves into the gate of Drive & Ambition, 54, where Pluto is until late Oct. This is part of the channel of Transformation and is a projected channel ie we need to wait for the recognition and invitation to share that Transformation.


I'll add here too that I'm going thru Mutation this year 3/60 by Surrendering 44/26 to the process and my Life Unfolding. My individual mutations will only benefit others if they are adaptable. If they aren't, they won't mutate the tribe lol.


Wednesday, September 18, 2019

We’re Here to Display Our Unique Truth

To be caught up in this homogenized world and in its madness is what happens when you follow the dictates of your mind. It is not you. It is not speaking for you. It is obeying outer authority from somewhere else. It is obeying the authority of what conditions you. It is obeying the habits that have been established in you through what has been conditioned in you. It’s killing you. It’s turning your intelligence into a joke, because intelligence without awareness is just a bad joke. It’s what happens when you think that your mind is going to guide you to the promised land. It’s not equipped. And aside from all of that, what about you?

This thing that stands in the way, stands in the way of you, of you discovering you. This is what this is about. What this knowledge is about is stripping away the layers and layers of ignorance so you can get to your place, a place of uniqueness. This is a very special word. There is no comparison.

We are here to differentiate fully as a potential, each of us in our unique way expressing ultimately what our unique truth is. But to live as an individual, to be someone who lives by their own authority, that takes a lot of serendipity. It truly does. It's not for everyone.

(It's not like you have a choice. All of you have an illusion that you have a choice, that you're here by choice, and that you can do this by choice. It’s such a joke.)
****I left this (...) part in as I've been experimenting with choices to see where I do have choices and where I don't. I always have a choice to my responses, tho I may react 1st, I can still choose to respond.

It’s just a movie, after all. The passenger can watch all of this. It’s your serendipity to be here. It’s your good fortune. It is something to grasp about this relative to everything else, because it does not say that anything here is to be believed. It never has.

And nobody can bring you to this truth but you. We don’t sing as a chorus here. It’s just you. It’s an experiment, after all. It demands little else than the commitment to the experiment, and then it’s up to you, whatever that is, a door that opens for your possibility. It’s mechanical.

Until you experiment with the mechanics you will not know. You'll begin to understand that when you follow your Type and your Strategy, the Inner Authority, you’ll begin to see the shift. You'll begin to see differently, because you begin to slowly get acquainted with yourself. You never lived as yourself. Human beings spend most of their lives being nothing but not-self. There are very few exceptions. This is our world.

Excerpt from The Not-Self by Ra


Abracadabra My Human Design

I've been putting my own meaning to things and it's been really cool. It totally goes along with imagining my universe and life by putting my own meaning to my experiences, too.

This year, I've been able to more easily rewrite my own stories with the help of my friend, Timothy Brainard, and role model, Karen Parker. It's also opened me up to creating meanings, including new keywords based on Self within my hd since all hd was written based on the not-self. This is my personal view of the potential for perfection, tho without the attachment of everything needing to be perfect within its potential 💖

I would love to hear how you have been rewriting or reframing your life experiences, meanings in your life, and your stories. Please share in the comments or with a new post 💜🦄💜

**In one of Karen Parker's courses that I took this year, I learned that the word abracadabra is actually from the Hebrew language.